Today I feel like REALLY blogging-PatBlogahan style...
Today is the very last day of August 2011, and I must say, this has been the GREATEST month of my life-I mean that whole-heartedly. I think something happened early on that Saturday morning (August 13th) during the meteor shower. I saw at least six shooting stars, and I now believe that shooting stars are messengers from The Universe searching for people with wishes. Call me a cheese-ball, or insane, but I truly believe that those shooting stars saw something special in my heart, and chose to to honor me with having my dreams come true.
Stars really amaze me. Science has a tendency to ruin their beauty though; stop analyzing the gas, rocks, and matter that stars are made of. Just take a drive far away from city lights, find an open patch of sky, and gaze. Gaze at all their twinkling. Gaze at how many stars there are. Gaze at the way they chose to align themselves. Gaze, and listen to nature. Gaze, and believe in yourself, and abilities. Gaze, and wish upon each and every star.
Now, let me make one thing clear, I have wished on many stars in my life; some shooting, some not. I’m sure other wishes have come true-but I don’t remember clearly. Honestly, when I was 3 I probablly wished for a lollipop; but this time was different. On August 13, 2011, when I wished on those shooting stars (Ok, I know they are technically meteors, but please, don’t rain on my parade) something happened. Something magical, mystical, and amazing. Something happened in those wee hours of Saturday morning, and it is hard to explain why.
It was merely one day later that my world was turned around, when I got to see Train in concert due to last minute ticket availability. I thank the Universe for bringing Pat over to me, and bringing me on to the stage. I thank the Universe for giving me such an amazing, loving dad who is so devoted to my love for Train. Thank you.
Just under two weeks later, I went to see Train on the Today Show. I thank the Universe for inspiring me to create the Trainiac Today Show Project. I thank Train for bringing so many special, outstanding, wonderful people into my life; including themsleves. If it had not been for my friend Leslie, Columbia Records would not have known about my poster. If it had not been for the amazing Hector Maldonado replying to my Twitter messages, I may have lost hope. All the things that came together to make my day so special, came together at perfect times, and in perfect order.
Now, I’d like to take this time to thank Train. You guys are truly the most inspirational people I have ever met (yes, met, and damn proud of it). It means more than the world to me that you took the time to read my letters. It means more than the world to me that you pay attention to me on Twitter. Pat, the first thing you said to me was “You are the girl! I was looking for your tie-dye!” My heart did five thousand flips! I felt so bad that I could hardly speak when I met you guys, but I hope the smile on my face was saying all that my mouth couldn’t, and heart wanted. Pat, I was in awe of how calm, and down -to- Earth you are. You hugged me, and put your arm around me, and I could have melted! Scott, I’m sorry I couldn’t do much more than stare at you, and shake your hand! Man, you make me smile so hard when I watch The Mustache, and when you waved at me on the Today Show, I felt like the only girl in the world! Jimmy, you are amazing, Jammer! I wish I could have gotten out how adorable McKenna is, and how evident your love for her is! You are a beautiful person, and I meant it when I said that I love your tattoos ;) Pergo, you are awesome! Thank you for helping me onstage when I was a Trainette in Bethlehem (at least I think that was you) and for smiling at me when I was babbling to the floor about my letter to go with the poster! Moose, the man, the myth, the legend! Moose, thank you for the JS guitar picks in Bethlehem, and thank you for letting us get pictures with you in NYC! Jerry, Hector, I wish I could’ve met you guys-someday! Hector, I cannot thank you enough for your tweets. You made me feel so special, and my happiness is undescribable! <3
So there you have it. I may not be super religious, but I do believe that there is something looking out for me, and for everybody else, for that matter. I BELIEVE. My friend Kelly taught me that- that you just have to BELIEVE. I sure as heck believe that Train has angels following them everyday. I believe, KNOW, rather, that dreams DO come true.
Sorry that this blog was long, sappy, and cheesy at parts. I just had to put my thoughts somewhere. Honestly, Train, I am still having trouble getting the words out. All I can say is, your music has saved me time, and time agian, but you have taught me the most valuable life lesson there is:
If you believe in yourself, and want with your whole heart and soul, your every dream can come true. Mine did. If it can happen to me, it can happen to anyone.
Before this summer, I did not believe in destiny. I did not believe that my dreams could come true so perfectly. I did not believe that shooting stars were worth my time. I tried to live my life in a very straight forward way. That was wrong of me. I BELIEVE now.
“I am reporting a factual error. This states Pat Monahan is “annoying”.. ..Hmm.. What hit this writer on the head? Just wondering. I think maybe they should go see the doctor, because I have reason to believe that have a major case of douche bag-itus. Better get on that.”
Trainiac Today Show Project: The NEW greatest day of my life <3
Alrighty. So it all started at 2am when my dad picked me up to go NYC. We drove to Newark Penn Station and took the PATH into the city. I have to tell you, I was FREAKING out because I was afraid of not getting in line on time; fortunately my wonderful, amazing fellow trainiacs, Jill A, Maria, Maryanne, Maria, Jill K, and Kitty, were all there waiting for me!
We were all set in line by 4am right next to TRAIN’S TOUR BUS! It was CRAZY!
So, we had Fan Passes, so we got priority admission-after the VIPs and Radio people. By the time we got in, we were closer to the front than the back, but not all the way up. Luckily, I found a railing to stand on to make myself taller, so that we could wave the Trainiac Today Show Project high, and proud!
As we stood in the pen, I checked twitter, and saw that HECTOR MALDANADO had replied to my Direct Message on Twittter! OMG! It said:
“We are pretty much in and out, so I will look for the sign and for you in the audience. Thank you for the letter. Meant a lot to all of us..Glad to be here. Let’s jam!! :)”So I said:”Omg Hector thank you for repling! On jimmys side next to lighting with other Trainiacs! I’ll scream for you :) I’m glad u liked the letter!”So, when the guys came out for sound check, Jill A and I counted to three, and SCREAMED their names! First was Hector, and he smiled and waved!!! Next was Jimmy, and then Scott. Scott, was AMAZING! He smiled, waved and gave a REALLY silly, happy expression our way! It was INCREDIBLE!! So, we kept trying to show the camera our poster, and we succeeded a few times! After they were done with warm up, I got this message from Hector:”Very sweet! I totally heard you. Love it!”I WAS ECSATIC! So then, A lady came over to us, and said;”hey, this is awesome! You guys made this? I was told you would be here! So I hear you want to give this to the guys, I can do that after the show!”Dude, I was FREAKIN’ out! All of our hard work was going to be seen, by TRAIN!!!!So, the concert went on, we called names some more, once was Moose, and he laughed and smiled! It was AMAZING! So then, at the end of the show, a lady comes up to us (me, my dad, jill A, Maria, Elise, and Kitty) and says ok, come with me. So we follow her downstairs….and THERE HE WAS! PAT MONAHAN! OMGGGG! I was soo scared, but I couldn’t stop smiling! He looks at me, and goes, “You’re the girl!” I don’t even know what I did-nodded maybe! I proceeded to show him OUR poster, and he LOVED it! I kept saying how much Train means to us fans, and how many amazing people they bring together! He hugged me lots, and we got tons of pictures! Then, jimmy and Scott came out! I shook Scott’s hand (wouldve hugged him, but I was so overwhelmed) and told Jimmy I loved his tattoos!! All the guys signed my shirt, and Fan pass!! Pat wrote “WE <3 CHARLOTTE” on my shirt above his name!!! EEEEKKK! NEVER WASHING THIS SHIRT AGAIN!!So I gave Pat my posters and letters, and we said our goodbyes! Poor Jimmy and Scott seemed EXHAUSTED! Im sure Pat was too, but I think he was really happy to see how much he and Jimmy, Scott, Hector, and Jerry mean to us fans! I thought I was going to cry!! Then, I said “See you later at Pnc!” Pat said he wants me to be a trainette -I smiled even though I only have lawn seats :)So, the girls and I (and my dad) went back up, and jumped around huggin! It was the greatest experience of my life, and it was such a suprise! I mean, I had it set in my mind that I was going to get the poster to the guys, but I NEVER imagined I would get to hand it to them personally! I owe it all to all of you WONDERFUL, BEAUTIFUL trainiacs out there! ESPECIALLY Leslie Smith, who was the reason the Columbia Records lady knew who we were! THANK YOU LESLIE! YOU ARE MY HERO! <3<3<3Dude, for anyone who has never met Train, they are freaking AWESOME! Pat is soo sincere, and Jimmy and Scott, are soo super amazing! I just could not stop smiling, and words just wouldn’t come out of my mouth haha!So, after all that, we walked outside only to see MOOSE! haha I asked him for a picture and he laughed and said sure! HE IS VERY TALL, MAN! He was sooo nice and funny! he even did a little NYC Moose Call for us! HAHA I love him!So guys, that is our story! WE DID IT! Train got our poster! Sending hugs and love to each and every one of you! I wish you all could’ve been there with me!With the right amount of love and determination, I promise you that any dream CAN and WILL come true!Alright, time for this trainiac to rest. I’ve got PNC tonight-ohhhh boy!!! =DMuch Love,Charlotte
Hmmphh. I guess the whole “1 diary entry a day” mentality faded….
SO anyways, I am up for the day.
Yes, it’s 11pm.
At 2am I am going to NYC to get on line for Train on the Today Show at 4am.
I put together a gift for Train, that would not have been possible without my global Trainiac friends! I guess I shouldn’t say I- WE put it together- that’s better ;)
OUR gift is a giant poster with everyone’s photo, and where they are from. It’s the friggin shhhyyyyt, and I can’t wait! I really hope I get to give it to them!
I have emailed Ann Curry, and she replied that she’d keep an eye out for me-wonder if it was really her? One of my friends also spread the word to people from Columbia Records-they’re gonna be looking! I really hope it all goes well- I think Train is aware that I’m coming too! THIS IS AWESOME!
Alright, I need to keep myself occupied for the next 4 hrs. I guess I blog again later if I get bored.
Years ago I had a great therapist. Her name is Judi. She is a really special person and she was the start of a large transformation for me. I am forever indebted to her. I should call her more often to thank her and give her my love. Anyway, I mention her because I’ve been wondering why people…
Ok guys, tomorrow is Monday! I have gotten lots of emails, and I am currently putting the pictures together. I am planning to finalize the project on Tuesday night, and have the poster printed Wednesday morning. PLEASE REMEMBER TO SEND ME YOUR PIX/INFO IF YOU WANT TO PARTICIPATE! I will check my email FOR THE FINAL TIME early Tuesday morning, becuase I understand that there are time differences. Unless you have messaged me ahead of time, I cannot accept any late emails. Here’s the list of all my confirmed Trainiacs: Teresa Morales AmyTrain Leslie Smithe Rhonda Prather Sheri Lynne Hayley Kloda Leah White Nathalie Vernimmen Lillian Johnson Joy Warner Rafferty Alannah Danielle Sandra Groeneveld Blair Moran Jill Somers & Jenna Winn Ruby Lagoda Lisa Christie Laura & Gemma Clark Karen Rixie Brown Cindy Ambramo Joni High Stephanie Shenk & Taylor ROmine & Zoe ROmine Hannah Trost Amandine Bernard Maryanne DiOrio Tammie Zygmunt Jill Alintoff Lucia Corpache Farryn Melton David Fraley Sam Oak Melissa Deborah Vero Rivka Halli Melton Elizabeth Warren Tirza Pijnenburg Katherine Mellendick Elma Vinas That’s who I have so far! Thanks guys! ♥ Charlotte
It’s crazy, and rather terrifying to think that I am going to be starting Sophmore year pretty soon. Thinking back to past years, it’s terrifying to think that after all my years of pre-school, elementary school, and middle school, I have finally reached high school. Last year, 4 years seemed SO long. But 4 years is double the amount of time I spent going from Kindergarten to 8th grade. Now I’m down to 3 years. I have less than 10 years until I’m out of college, and on my own; in the real world *gulp*.
I know that I cannot go though Sophmore year the way I did Freshmen. Of course, 9th grade wasn’t all terrible, but it was certainly a very rough year for me. I struggled with family, and all that stress made school very difficult. I know now, how to overcome my stresses, and I have resolved my problems of the past. It’s funny. Last year I could only think about how quickly I wanted my next 4 years to go by, because then I could flee this town. I still plan to leave and go to California, but I don’t want it to go by so fast anymore. I want to cheris the years. I want to live each day to the fullest.
Going forward, I know not every day will be good. I know that I won’t get a 100% on every test. My friends may change, my ideas of my future may change too. For now, I can only move forward, smiling. God, time goes by so fast. I can still remember my first day of 2nd grade at my new school. That was 8 years ago!
Hmmm. I don’t know if this is a proper “diary”, but more a look into my head? haha I dunno, I’m just babbling =]
*Update!* Ok, I have figured out (roughly) what I will do. The poster is about showing the guys how grateful we are that they have brought us together, so I was thinking of writing something in the middle like “Just miles away, or oceans apart Train has brought us together, we are all Trainiacs at heart” or something along those lines (thats just the first thing that came to mind). Then, if any of you saw my ” Sweet Rain” poster, it was pretty big, and this poster will be the same size. That means there will be plenty of room for everyone! I was thinking that maybe we could get some quotes from a FEW people and their quote would go near their photo. These quotes could be from a favorite concert, or a “I love train because…” quote or so on. But only a FEW would make it to the poster. Then, I really like the ribbon idea, so maybe I could attach ribbons or flags to the side and have some lyrics attached to that. I would like to have all the pictures/info in by MONDAY AUGUST 22. I think it would be best to have the info emailed to me at email@example.com, but if it’s easier jsut upload your picture/info to this group! I’d like to have your name first and last (last can be optional), country, state/region, town(optional) and Twitter username (if that applies to you). Also send me a picture of just you, you and Train friends, you and Train, or if you don’t want your picture to show up just send me a pic of your favorite album! So seriously, i would like to have all the info submitted by MONDAY AUGUST 22. If that will be a problem (you’re away, computer problems, etc. please let me know, and I will be happy to wait till tuesday or wednesday morning, but monday would be the best. Oh also, send me a quote about Train (optional) but make it short. I will pick a FEW to be shown on the poster, and will do my best to fit as many as possible, but i make no gaurantees. Also send me your favorite song, or the song you would most like to see quoted on the poster. Thanks guys! Trainiacs are the greatest people on Earth!!
But not becuase I’m sad. I’m overwhelmed with joy.
It is amazing how much music has touched my life recently. Especially that of Train. Those guys are truly angels if I’ve ever seen one. Take Jimmy for example; always happy, always smiling. And Pat, God I love him, his blogs bring me to tears because he is so inspirational. Scott, is a genuine man. He says the kindest things about us fans, and makes me laugh all the time.
Being a Trainette was an amazing experience, and I will never forget it! I hope that I will be able to meet the guys one day; it would be utterly amazing.
I don’t know, I suppose that’s all for now. Just had to get that off my chest. I’m beaming now, this smile will never fade. I think I’m gonna start to keep a journal on here. I’ll start tomorrow.
So, I sparked an idea today, but I need YOUR help to make it possible!
I will be going to see the guys on the Today Show on Friday August 26, and I thought it would really cool to show the guys how much they mean to us Trainiacs. I was thinking of designing a poster of some sort with all the names of us Trainiacs from all over the world. If you’re on Twitter, I would add your Twitter username too.
I’m still not sure exactly what the layout of this poster would be, but I’m hoping that even if the names are small I will be able to hand it to the guys before they leave.
This is where I need help! give me feed back and ideas on how to make this poster! It would be like a combo of the Words project and the video Vero made! I just want to show the guys how much I appreciate them, and the friends they have brought me <3 How cool would it be if it got on TV?!?!
I don’t usually talk much about tragedies like the one in Indianapolis Saturday night and I can’t imagine I’ll ever let myself watch any video clips of it ever either. But I feel like simply adding these people to my thoughts isn’t quite enough. This is a very close to home topic for me/us and the…
It all started on a rainy Sunday afternoon. August 14, 2011 to be exact ;).
My dad calls me up and tells me that Train is playing a show an hour and a half away, and there were still 13th row tickets available. Obvioulsy, I was giddy as hell, and could NOT wait until later in the night. On top of this, my dad printed out a custom poster for me! It read “SWEET RAIN, COME DOWN ON ME! RAIN CAN’T STOP A TRAINIAC!” Evidently, the forecast was calling for heavy rain, and thunder.
We arrive at the venue in Bethlehem, PA at the Sands Casino; wicked venue! There were remains of the old steel mill, so the sceneray was INSANE! When we got there we took a shuttle over to the concert, and arrived about 2 hours early. It was around 6pm. We went in and got our tix from will call, and I bought a summer 2011 T-shirt =] after that we went into the concert in time to hear Nikki Jean play a few songs, and after that, The Damnwells. They are amazing by the way! There latest album is called No One Listens to the Band Anymore….super awesome!
So, finally, Train comes on, and I nearly died. I immediately jumped up with my sign and screamed, and danced. We jumped up with the sign about 3 more times, but kept being told to sit. I think the usher was getting irritated with me because i keep inching out further and further into the aisle (we had aisle seats). Then, She’s On Fire came on and everybody rushed to the stage. I managed to squeeze all the way up front, and I was in heaven. As Pat proceeded to choose his Trainettes, my dad hoisted me up and I was screaming “PATTTT!” so loud, my throat was killing! Soon, Pat had his Trainettes, and I put on a weak grin as I watched them dance. But then, “Alright, we need one more!” My heart leaped, and I jumped back up and my dad lifted me. PAT CAME OVER!!! He looked at me and said, “Are you gonna get up here and show me some dancing?”
me, “YEAH PAT!”
Pat, “You’re not gonna let me down are ya?”
me, “No way!”
Pat, “Alright, get up here, and hurry!”
Me, “AHHHH OMG AHHHADSGEFVI!”
hehe or at least the conversation went something like that ;) so I got up on the stage, and smiled at Jimmy, and walked towards the other Trainettes, but before I did, I HUGGED PAT MONAHAN!!! I don’t know how I got the courage (I’m usually very timid) but omg am I glad I got it! I said something that was supposed to be “Thanks, I love you!” But I think it came out as a shrill squeal of pure excitement! Then Pat introduced me as the new Trainette and made me dance all alone! I was way too happy to even care what the hell anyone else thought of me ;) Then, Pat told me I was like a cheerleader haha! I didn’t even care that he was making fun of me, hell, it made me laugh =]
So, after dancing around with the Trainettes, i got off stage, but not without handing letters I wrote to the boys, to a roadie. I sure hope he gave them those letters! After that, i managed to push my way back to my dad in the very, very front (to many people’s displeasure) and got plenty of smiles and laughs out of Jimmy, and even got to touch Pat a few more times!
As the night came to a soaking wet end, I screamed the name of one of the roadies. They call him Moose (I band stalk way too much) and I got his attention a few times. When the concert was over, he gave me 7 Jimmy Stafford guitar picks, and I threw my poster on stage (dunno if he took it or not). Then we finally left, and i got another wicked awesome T-Shirt, and even met Ted Hudson from The Damnwells, and got my picture with him!
So, I like to conclude with, Thank you Universe for holding back your storms! Thank you for showing me that Fate is always waiting to pick you up when you least expect it. And thank you Universe, for showing me that good, great, AMAZING things truly do come to those who wait. Thank you Train! Thank you Pat for choosing me as a Trainette, and letting me give you a very rainy hug. Thank you Jimmy for looking my way, and smiling. Thank you Moose for being so generous, and throwing me some picks =] Thank you everyone involved in making tonight possible. Thank you to the guys who hoisted me on to the stage! I skinned my knees, and ya know what? I’m never letting them heal =P hehe tonight was utterly amazing. Rain and all. I mean really,
"life isn’t about waiting for the storm to pass, it’s about learing to dance in the rain"
Thunder, Lightning, Rain, you are all beautiful. Really, you are. But PLEASE, not tonight! Show yourselves tomorrow! Please! Any other night or day! Please just let there be clear skies tonight. Please, I need this night.