A problem I have with my art is finding inspiration. I am the type of person who can either be entirely devoted to something, or have no interest at all. There isn’t much in between for me. I am not the type of person who will settle for :
"Oh, this painting is not my best work, but I’ll just keep it anyway."
nope…I’m more like…
"This is piece of shit, and I’m starting over! *crumples up painting*"
Although this mindset can become rather frustrating at times, it works for me. It pushes me to do my best. I have never finished a piece of art that I thought was perfect. I always see something that I could have done better. The small flaws that nobody else notices in my work stick out to me like a sore thumb-I suppose many artists feel this way about their work.
Now you see, my problem is that I work very fast when I am inspired by somethig, but I cannot work at all when I am not. If I decide to paint a portrait, I finish it in a matter of hours, and I rarely alter it after I sign my name. With this being said, I do not sign my name until I am ready to put the painting aside, and begin a new project. Most of my inspirations come from people, and music. If I am painting or drawing a particular band or artist, I only listen to their music while I work. It works for me.
Ok, so my reason for telling you all of this is because I need you to understand how hard it is for me to find an inspiration sometimes. Not life inspiration, but artistic. Currently, I am starting a project in school. We are making accordion books that are to act as a ‘personal narrative’. I have been contemplating ideas for a while now, and have come to the conclusion that all of YOU have become my inspiration.
YOU: the ones who read my blogs.
YOU: The ones who I talk to on Twitter/ Facebook.
YOU: the ones who have sent me beautiful messages
YOU: the ones who believe in me
YOU: the ones who tell me to never give up
YOU: the ones who have made me feel like a good person.
You are all beautiful.
So here’s the idea:
For those of you who have read previous blogs, you know that I believe in the stars, the Universe, and the sky. I would like to incorporate all of the sky into my project. As for the other part….
(psst….this where YOU come into play….)
I have been reading through tumblr, twitter, and Facebook messages. I have written down some of the things that you have all said to me. The things that made me smile, the things that warmed my heart, the things that made me cry with joy. My idea is write small quotes that have made me feel special on the pages. Quotes from all of YOU. You see, this project is supposed to be personal. I think it would be very special to have this project forever; it would be my inspiration. All of the beautiful things that have changed me for the better wrapped up into one book. It would be the kind of thing that I could flip through when I am feeling down. I could read through the beautiful words that you have all gifted me with. No matter what, I will always know that someone believes in me.
My concern is this….does this sound cocky? DO I sound like I am saying:
"Oh look at me, I am so great. Look all the nice things people say about me!"
Because that is NOT what I am trying to get at. This is meant to be a way to put together the voices that inspire me….YOUR voices. I will not be directly quoting anybody, but I promise you, I know exactly who said each quote that will be used. Your words have impacted me so much that I know them by heart.
I just want to say thank you. Thank you for being my inspiration. Thank you for being my heroes. Thank you for changing my life with your kind words.
You are all beautiful people, and I wish I could personally thank each and every one of you.